I hate being hard
Duo do you have to be so hard because all languages are diificult
If you don't want to make some efforts, you'll never be able to achieve anything. Take a deep breath and work. If it's hard, work hard.
It definitely takes time to learn a language. Keep at it and let me know what aspect you find the most difficult. I always find it helpful to stick to practicing a small amount each day. Once I'm in a rhythm of practicing it gets easier for me to retain all the grammar and become more comfortable with hearing the language.