I am so tired
In case anyone was following my posts on here, sorry it's been a while. I work full time in my second language and I am SO TIRED. I love Germany, but what I'm about to write isn't very encouraging. So if you aren't ready for that please close this discussion now.
German is hard. Language is the hardest challenge I've ever given myself. This is the first time I've learnt a new language. I haven't ever felt so tired in my life. I sleep for up to 10 hours and I still wake up feeling anxious about the day. I have to speak only German, sometimes with teachers sometimes with my team. I have to communicate with the head office of my organisation, my pastor and other people from my Church.
Perhaps this isn't what you wanted to read, but guys, I'm on the edge of breakthrough, I just know it. It's about to click, I'm about to find fluency. It's within the next months I know it. That makes it worth getting up everyday and wanting to go straight back to sleep. I'll be okay.
Breakthrough is coming.
You are a very lucky girl! It may not seem like it, but your position is the absolute best that you can be in to get to fluency :)
It's like this: many people think that going to a country where their target language is mainly spoken will instantly guarantee they'll be fluent. That's far from true, even if you move to a country where English isn't widely spoken, it's still possible to get by without speaking much to anyone, and only making friends with fellow English speakers. However, in your case, you're basically forced to become fluent, and though it drains you, it will all pay off in the end.
YES. I agree so much. Being part of this organisation means everyone I've met has been told by my team leader to only speak German with me. That is helpful, every German loves practicing their English!
Fully agree with this.
I'm currently living in France for art studies, but have little to no interest in learning French. Not to be rude, but you just don't need to unless you actually have a job in that country. Even in my current town where most people don't speak English, just learning a couple key words along with gestures gets the message across.
I felt bad about it though, so that's why I'm here learning a language I've always wanted to learn to sort of make up for my laziness. :P While I can't say that I'm planning to try and become fluent, I do have some German friends of whom I'm going to ask to help me out by skyping with them every other day to speak German with. It comes down to perseverance; if you have that, you'll reach whatever goal you have even if it's through unconventional means.
I've been studying for years now and I know your struggle. I think I'm finally beginning to have my breakthrough too. You're in the best place you could be to build up your ability so consider that a blessing.
I am thoroughly blessed to be here, I know that. Sadly being here means i no longer control my pace, in England I can be on Duolingo for 2 hours a day, speak only German the whole day or read one blog then go back to my mother language. Here I must always speak German. It IS a blessing, but it is a curse too!
When I was in university I had German classes where English was pretty much not spoken at all so I know how you're feeling. Good luck to ya.
Have you gotten to the point where you don't have to translate in your mind everything which is being said? I don't mean the entire day's worth of German, but some conversation or writing.
And don't worry about not being perfect in German. Just do the best you can do. I've heard of several English-speaking expats who have lived 20+ years in Germany fully immersed in German society and they still have to ask their spouses and children to proof-read their e-mail. Also, how many English-speaking people speak absolutely perfect English?
Hope everything goes well with you.
With some things yes. Because I work with an organisation which trains us, I had the same training last year in English, that means I read things about that just in German. Today I also tried translating in my head while my colleague introduced herself and I realised I find it easier to listen to the German!
Both very true, I just need to keep trying! Thank you for the support!!
Is there any way you can get some time off? Take a week to relax and recharge? Too much stress isn't good for you, take care! :)
Nope, our next time off its christmas, but 3 months isn't that bad!
Indeed.. it's very tiring. But what helps me is channeling my stress through working out. I've committed to it enough because I want to see results, just as I've seen results in language learning. And when I research exercise materials, and watch video tutorials given by the people who have that dedication, who persevered, and who achieved their goals, I see that perseverance is a very admirable trait. It makes me want it that much more. So, persevere. It's the right thing to do. :) Rome wasn't built in a day!
thank you for such an honest and open post! I think it is very encouraging, yes, even more than super-happy posts........because it is better to be super-happy when you reach the fluency, than in the beginning when you have no idea how hard it will be and the motivation wanishes after a few problems. You do it and you do it right! Viel gluck!
God Bless You, Ellie Jane! Your post is actually very encouraging because despite the struggle you ARE on the point of that breakthrough. I'm only just starting out with German here, or at least picking up again after doing two years at school over 30 years ago; there's a very strong chance I'll be moving to Austria in the next year and a big part of that is a strong sense of calling to do something for the church over there so it's been a little daunting to consider just how long it might take me to learn the language well enough to express myself properly. So it's great to hear that if you throw yourself into it with full commitment, it is possible to get as far as you have done. Well done! Keep going!
Really encouraged by your comment! I'll be praying for your time in Austria and your language development (Austrian German isn't 'high German' (proper German as we'd say in England) so be prepared to be in a whole new world. I'm so excited for you, God bless!
Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that? We must have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves. We must believe that we are gifted for something and that this thing must be attained. Marie Curie
I feel called to Deutschland for now! But I want to learn Portuguese, French, and Russian in my life time. When that is through I'll try dutch
Sounds like you are also experiencing some cultural exhaustion, too. Moving to a new country, being immersed in a new language, feeling "lost" so much of the time (especially in everyday situations that you probably felt so confident about in your home country that you never even thought about them) is one of the most stressful things to do in life. Also incredibly rewarding, but DIFFICULT! Hang in there. These emotional ups and downs are normal and they do pass. Check out this article on the emotions of cultural adjustment: https://www.afswiki.org/index.php/AFS_Orientation_Framework